why u keep bothering me if u don't love me!!! why u came over my apartment if there is someone waiting for you at home!!! my heart can not get hurt no more!! i will be crazy... please god, tell me what should i do... i've already left you, so please don't come near me!!! finally i feel strong and indepedence, why u have to keep showing in front of my face? u said u miss me, u want to see me, but what for? please don't use knife to kill me then tell me u want me!!!! i hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow, finally i got my 1st tatoo!!!! thanks my friends be there with me!! too many things happened recently... really feel upset, therefore, finally i desided to get a tatoo!!! i feel much better after i got my 1st new tatoo ^Q^... it was not that hurt as i thought, but when the tatooner drawing the outline of my tatoo, wow, just like a knife stap on my boby!! but it was just the start, after a while, it starts feeling great!! so high!! haa.... u know its amazing, when i think abt sth really make me sad or bad, i didn't feel any pain of my back!! i feel so great and happy!!! anyway, i've already tell myself, i will get my 2nd soon!

yeah~~~ betty and heather is here, coz they were here, i won't think that much stupid things!! finally, i know, i have to make myself busy, so i won't do anything stupid things!! but still i love to drink!!!!!! someone told me one cocktail!! i don't know the name, but it use "stoli rasbarry, melon packer, craberry and sour mix! wow, that one taste so good!!