LiFe in Philly

My favor Chirstmas Songs!!!

THE SONG OF USA

Bella's B-Day @ Ice

Movie of the Week

movie of the week

Saturday night, I went see the movie “30 Days of Night”.

Its starring by Josh Hartnett...etc. The story is about a small town in Alaska, the winter sunsets and does not rise for 30 days and nights, so Vampires who have 30 days of night to wreak their havoc. Well, Don’t get too excited, this movie is a complete piece of crap. There is no plot what so ever. When I first saw the trailer to this movie, I thought it was great concept. I was eager to go see the movie but was truly let down! This movie sucked!!! Horrible, directionless story, predictable at all times, and some of the absolute worst editing I have ever seen!!!!

A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila

Tyler Perry's Why did I get Married?

Today's Funniest Video!!

Lust , Caution ~色戒~

I LOVE PITBULL

Go Phillies~~

網友毒舌短片　翊安vs.一碗麵　同是小孩差這麼多

9/11

高山峰VS.小甜甜

the article

the feeling

I MISS....

BECAUSE OF YOU

START TO RUN =="

FAT! FAT!! FAT!!!!!

Photo Album: reception 3/30

Photo Album: My Lovely Family

Photo Album: 3/30 Welcome to my lovely sister's wedding

Photo Album: Kailin & Ray's Wedding

Photo Album: Bella B-day @ Ice

Photo Album: ~We are Family~

Photo Album: Lori's baby~ A.J.

Photo Album: Gay St Fair 2007

Photo Album: 2006Christmas

Photo Album: Thanksgiving at Sammie's 2006

Photo Album: 10days in philly @pure 022006

~~ LiFe in Philly ~~

My favor Chirstmas Songs!!!

THE SONG OF USA

Bella's B-Day @ Ice

Movie of the Week

movie of the week

Saturday night, I went see the movie “30 Days of Night”.

A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila

Tyler Perry's Why did I get Married?

Today's Funniest Video!!

Lust , Caution ~*色戒*~

I LOVE PITBULL

Go Phillies~~

網友毒舌短片 翊安vs.一碗麵 同是小孩差這麼多

9/11

高山峰VS.小甜甜

the article

the feeling

I MISS....

BECAUSE OF YOU

START TO RUN =="

FAT! FAT!! FAT!!!!!

Photo Album: reception 3/30

Photo Album: My Lovely Family

Photo Album: 3/30 Welcome to my lovely sister's wedding

Photo Album: Kailin & Ray's Wedding

Photo Album: Bella B-day @ Ice

Photo Album: ~**We are Family**~

Photo Album: Lori's baby~ A.J.

Photo Album: Gay St Fair 2007

Photo Album: 2006Christmas

Photo Album: Thanksgiving at Sammie's 2006

Photo Album: 10days in philly @pure 022006

LiFe in Philly

Lust , Caution ~色戒~

網友毒舌短片　翊安vs.一碗麵　同是小孩差這麼多

Photo Album: ~We are Family~

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 15:47:41 GMT

wow~ the christmas is coming!! are you ready for the holidays?? i can't wait it comes!!!

here are the 2 songs that i love, share with you guys~~

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 22:04:25 GMT

haven't have a chance to go bootleggers again... sometimes really want to enjoy the live band. guys, this song i attached its the most popullar song in USA. i never listen it until i came to philly.. just want to share with you guys!!! This song's name is " Don't Stop Believin'"

Don't Stop Believin'

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train going anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train going anywhere

A singer in a smoky room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 16:00:44 GMT

last saturday was bella's 25th birthday, so we went to Ice to celebrate. there are bella, me, sammi, kai, ray, toni, glenn, amour, adam, shawn, akemi,joan, mike, jason, jamie and lots lots of friend!!! we drank as much we can, until we get tipsy! we thought the party will be done by 3am, coz of the winnter time change, so we got one hour back! But coz there were a fight at hotel, the police came, so party has to be over...>_< if you think the party is over, then you are wrong! coz finally we decided to go PURE!! the gay bar!! so we drove to downtown to continue the party!~ coz there were some of our friends didn't show out at Ice, they were at pure instead. when we show up, they were so suprised!!! sadly, i have to leave early!!

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 15:37:04 GMT

Last Saturday night, I went to see the movie “ Saw IV”…

<->

I loved the Saw series; I thought it was unique and thrilling. But I start to think, how many "Saw"s are they intending to make?

Compare to those first 3 Saw. The Saw 4 is okay… I was a little scared but not that shock. It was a little confused in the beginning, but after a while, the story is getting interesting. They are still all tied together with all Saw movies. If you like the Saw movie, they you must seen this one!! Oh, by the way, please watch saw 1-3 before you go watch saw 4, otherwise you gonna get confused.

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 16:52:56 GMT

By the way, there is a better story happened outside of theater’s parking lots!! There was a Mercedes Benz that illegal parked 2 spots of parking. I guess the owner of that Mercedes doesn’t want people to scratch her car, so she parted 2 spots. Coz of how she did, people got mad! After the movie, the Mercedes got flat tires, got scratch and someone paint the car write “bitch ass” wow~~ what the terrible night for the owner.. ha~

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:05:34 GMT

Check her out!!! She is so HOT and SPICE!!

i know you guys must think, who is she... her name is Tila Tequila, the No. 1 person at myspace, MTV is showing her new reality show "A Shot at LOve with Tila Tequila". take a look, guys~ Asian Woman ROCKS!!!!

her songs are ROCK!!just click play, then you'll get crazy about her!!!

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 17:32:23 GMT

I didn’t know who is Tyler Perry until I went to see his movie last night. Because one of my friends, Jason, who is really wants to go see that movie, so I went with him. Before I go see that film, I was like… what kinds of movie is that, and have many questionnaires. So I went online to check the critics and people’s reviews. Wow~ “Tyler Perry’s Why did I get Married?” which is the No. 1 movie in the Top Box Office.

----> Why did I get Married?? ---->Diannne and Terry at Patricia's ceremony

After I watched, I really like it. But I don’t think this movie will be shows in Taiwan, coz its kind of Soul Movie and it doesn’t have any super star in it. Oh~ besides Janet Jackson… I think u guys know her! But, guys~ if you really want to know about America society and culture... this is the must seen movie for you. By the way, forgot to tell you, i was the only Asian in the theater!!!

In this film, it’s talking about when eight married college friends reunite for their annual retreat in the snowcapped mountains of Colorado, they come expecting fun and relaxation, but get a completely unexpected surprise. Career-driven Dianne and her supportive, but fed-up husband, Terry, are joined by popular psychologist and best-selling author Patricia and her architect husband Gavin, who share a secret tragedy that finally comes to light, while Angela and Marcus argue constantly, but remain in love.

---> Angela try to have some with Marcus --->Mike is making fun for Sheila

Also in attendance is their good friend Sheila, a sweet woman with a distorted self-image stemming from weight issues that are exacerbated by her emotionally abusive and philandering husband, Mike. Unlike any other year, this trip changes the dynamic of the group with two new additions: Sheila’s supposed girlfriend, Trina, who is secretly sleeping with her husband; and Troy, an ex-Wall Street stockbroker who has put his career on hold to care for an ailing father.

In this film Janet Jackson plays Patricia, a psychotherapist stumping her latest self-help book on college campuses and then winning an award for it. All the while providing one off counseling to her friends troubled relationships while she has trouble in her own. Not revolutionary or very well developed in the world of plot lines.

---> Patricia and Gavin are crying about their son who died in the accident.

Jill Scott plays Sheila, an overweight woman in denial about her husbands philandering until he leaves her and takes all of her money at which point she finds love and a passion for walking with a kindly sheriff who just happens to be the best looking man in he film as well as independently wealthy - How many movies have we seen this in? I felt so bad for Sheila and the way her husband treated her...but in the end, she found happiness with a man who accepted her for who she was, not the way she looked. Who is that man?? Wow~ he is my favor!!! Troy!! What a sweat cute guy.

-----> Sheila and her Husband on the way to vacation.

-----> Sheila and Troy's Love Chemistry!!!!

I laughed and I cried all the way thru. There were some jaws dropping moments that you didn't see coming! Great job Tyler! A must see for all races, all ages, married or single!

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 17:14:07 GMT

haa, this morning i was listenning Chio in the morning Wired 96.5, heard about this you tude funny video! Can't wait to share with you guys!!!

a Kids is Scared to DEATH by his mom while singing Briney Spears Hit Me Baby One More Time~

Also, the newest Style of Ankle Purese from *Chanel*

It looks cute! i may get one.. but i heard from Ryan said, it is copy from the stripper's idea.... But its pretty cool idea for all crazy girls, coz... when we are in the club... we don't need to carry purses no more~ wowo!!!

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 18:36:50 GMT

I just watch this movie last night... after watch the movie, i only can say, this is the MUST seen movie in 2007. maybe this movie is not for american audience, but if you are chinese/taiwanese/cantonese...etc., OR part of asian, you must see it. i can understand why US critics are rated this filem C-, because its kind of hard for them to understant chinese history and culture.

here is the critics from taiwan's Lust, Caution website. just for the references.

copy from: http://www.bvi.com.tw/movies/lust_caution/

「色」「戒」中間有一個符號，張愛玲原本是用一個「。」但，當初小說刊出時被改為「，」李安在電影海報上又把它改成像一個倒過來的驚嘆號「i」這符號自「戒」來看像一炷香，從「色」來看，像陽具，像小蛇。

一部電影有趣，是因每個人看到不同的面相。「色，戒」有一幕是一群大學生演出舞台劇，他們高喊「中國不能亡」時，台灣首映會上有些觀眾熱淚滾滾，有人則忍不住起一身雞皮疙瘩，有人乾脆笑出聲來。馬英九屬於最前面那種人，他想到中國八年抗戰和保釣運動；新聞局長謝志偉不了解馬英九為什麼熱淚盈眶，謝志偉看到的是性交「易」先生和「麥」（賣）太太，及「進出口」意味「口交」。

李安在拍攝過程幾度痛哭，即使在台灣首映會後，他也曾在媒體前哽咽不能自已。他曾說自己並不想碰張愛玲的「色，戒」，但，「色，戒」自己來「找」他。歷史裡的幽魂，人性裡的光影，在教科書上可以被刪去，可以被忽視，但，藝術家沒法看不到。

李安在台灣試映會結束當天，自國外急電弟弟李崗，李崗說，「台灣觀眾的反應說不上來」，李安很急，「美國觀眾的反應也是說不上來，但是，台灣觀眾的反應怎麼會說不上來？」他在這塊土地長大，他認為他用心作出來的東西，台灣人會懂。台灣人會懂嗎？教科書上連南京大屠殺都不見了，總統說「中華民國是啥米碗糕」，台灣人懂那個時代的中國人的矛盾、生活和愛恨？知道汪精衛偽政權是怎麼回事？

但，台灣人畢竟沒把李安當外人，即使說不上來，仍然一片叫好，雖然多數人和新聞局長一樣，重點在男女主角的三點上。

三○年代，似遠又近，張愛玲用文字、李安用影像，以幾個人、幾條命、幾句話，拉出一個大時代，潑墨畫似的寫意架構，肌理用的手法卻是工筆畫。那群愛國話劇社的大學生，原來只是演戲，最後卻是在真正的人生裡演戲，然而，人生畢竟不是戲，愛國也不是只有一腔熱血，還要身體。色誘是一種獻身，拋頭顱是一種獻身，妻兒子女一起賠上也都是獻身，「人」這個身分在愛國這件事上，是最被需要壓抑隱藏的。然而，女主角最後沒照劇本走，「人」的身分壓倒了「演員」這個角色。

特務是更不能讓「人」浮上來的（湯唯若有可被批評處，就是幾場戲的眼神太「露」，不如老成的陳沖）。梁朝偉演的特工頭子，臉上每根線條、每個眼神，都幾乎是在精密控制之下才會牽動。情欲戲的必要於焉產生，情欲代表的是「人」。

交纏的情欲洞見本性

情欲不等於「人」，但，人若不鬆開、不剝光，不去除一切控制、束縛，不可能達到高潮，在情欲之中，人最顯其本性。易先生和王佳芝為了證明對彼此是認真的，他們在性裡尤須用力；為了釋放平日的壓抑，他們在床上更加狂放。嚴謹的男人變成猛男，婉約的女人變成娼妓，他們也因此成為彼此獨特而唯一的對象，那也許未必是愛，但，那唯一的關係卻讓他們不得不惺惺相惜。也是身不由己。

在兩人關係裡，易先生和王佳芝都想爭奪主導權，他們第一次約在小公寓裡時，王佳芝憤然對他說：「不許你嚇我」；她闖進他書房看到他在燒資料，她如泣如訴說著自己對他的思念，他的反應竟是冷冷一句：「不許再進這房間」。不許，不許，小女人的嬌蠻，大男人的霸氣，其實都是一種禁制式的嚴峻，隱含著誰才是主人。

她製造機會接近他，用言語情挑他，她是獵人，他是獵物；但，約會時間地點全由他決定，她永遠在等待，他才是主人。她要換下新作的旗袍，他命令式的說：「穿著」；她脫下試戴的鑽戒，他依舊是命令的語氣：「戴著」，他是她的主人，但，她在服從之中，衡量他是否上鉤。在第一次的性裡，他不僅是她的主人，他還把她當奴隸，撕裂她，鞭打她，而她企圖扳回劣勢，即使她已被他壓制在下面，她奮力回眸（湯唯這幕很經典），但仍被他打壓下去。他儼然征服了她，但，其實是他上鉤。

他們獵人獵物的關係，在她以一曲天涯歌女，讓他濕了眼眶後，她已贏得全面主導權，但，她知道自己不行了，她要求暗殺行動盡快進行，她近乎哭訴：「他不僅像蛇一樣鑽進我身體裡，每一次都折磨得我流血，他也像蛇一樣要鑽進我心裡。」她的組織沒聽到警訊，他們告訴她：「幹情報就是要忠誠，忠於黨，忠於領袖，忠於國家。」硜硜然，但是，作為一個情婦，她也必須「忠誠」才能演得像，必須讓他像蛇一樣進入她的身體和她的心。「忠誠」和「演得忠誠」是兩回事，前者是「人」，後者是「演員」，但，她畢竟不是職業演員。（在此順帶一提，很多人好奇湯唯和梁朝偉的情愛戲是不是「真槍實彈」，好演員應該不是真槍實彈，而讓觀眾以為是真槍實彈。演員若是真槍實彈，就沒有「演」可言。）

這兩個原本互有所圖的男女，因各自生命的幽暗處，在情欲關係裡得到奇異的理解，他們做愛的方式從爭奪權力主導，演變到最後，兩人交纏的姿勢如同嬰兒蜷曲在子宮，彷彿重回生命原初，相濡以沫，用張愛玲的話來說：「像洗了個熱水澡，把積鬱都沖掉了」，李安的說法是「juicy」（多汁的），兩個乾涸的靈魂因之得到滋潤。

最後壓垮她的是一隻六克拉大鑽戒。張愛玲原著對鑽戒也頗有著墨，「洗牌的時候一隻隻鑽戒光芒四射」、「牌桌上的確是戒指展覽會」、「她把那粉紅鑽戒戴在手上側過來側過去的看，與她玫瑰紅的指甲油一比，其實不過微紅，也不太大，但是光頭極足，亮閃閃的，異星一樣，紅得有種神秘感」。

虛無的鑽戒穿透色相

女人似乎都是被鑽戒壓垮的。「可惜不過是舞台上的小道具，而且只用這麼一會工夫，使人感到惆悵」，張愛玲這段文字，若用來形容婚禮上的鑽戒，也很恰當，而用在此時，則表現了王佳芝看透色相的絕望和虛無，一切是戲，鑽戒亦然。

真正壓垮王佳芝的其實不是鑽戒本身，而是鑽戒代表的信任。這是李安的巧思。

易先生給王佳芝一個信封，要她送到某地，王佳芝背後的組織以為易先生開始懷疑她，他們重兵保護她，未料，送信的地點是珠寶店，信封裡只是一張名片，憑片她可挑選任一隻她喜歡的鑽戒，他這麼信任她，而她這麼防他，她深受震動。

這不是易先生第一次表示他們的信任關係。特工基本上不相信任何人，他連電影都不看，因為「我不喜歡黑」（忍不住再順帶一提，這裡有點小幽默，梁朝偉幾年前曾拍過一支頭皮屑廣告：「藏在黑裡，就以為別人看不見」），他們在一次小別後幽會時，她幽幽的說：「我恨你，你相不相信？」他說「我相信」，他還要她再說一遍「我恨你，我每一分每一秒都恨你」，他也再說一次「我相信」。這裡充滿悲哀，這個特工頭子不能相信任何人，但，在她的「恨」裡，他卻找到信任。

真正的悲劇也從這裡開始，他信任她，六克拉的粉紅鑽具體而沈重的傳達了他的心意，也摧毀了王佳芝心防。她一句「快走」，救了這一個殺人無數、血腥滿手的特工頭子，她知道她即使救了他，兩人的信任關係也從此粉碎嗎？她知道他仍將親自決定她的死刑嗎？她知道他對她說這區區兩字「快走」，會讓他們六個用「愛國」兩字連結的性命一個也走不了嗎？

她知道嗎？她踉蹌走出珠寶店時，孑然一身，茫然四顧，那時，她是一個不知何去何從孤獨的「人」，而不是一個有劇本的「演員」。

六個大學生統統被槍斃，在小說中就只是幾個字，在電影裡則是一字排開跪下的身體，有人哭泣，有人徬徨，有人茫然，面對懸崖，他們當初準備好這一天了嗎？愛國不是「引刀成一快，不負少年頭」嗎？但，李安卻在六張不同的年輕人臉上，真誠的刻畫出「人」，而不是教科書上刻板的英雄形象。

溫厚的李安人性加料

兩個荒蕪的生命，在彼此身上找到依託。他的生，是她給他的；但，她的死卻是他決定的。在張愛玲筆下，易先生相信她臨終是恨他的，但，「『無毒不丈夫』，不是這樣的男子漢，她也不會愛他」，而他自己「得一知己，死而無憾」，他們是「最終極的占有」，「她這才生是他的人，死是他的鬼」，一字字像刀一樣，尖刻的寫活一個自私自戀的男人，但，看看李安的電影如何表現這段──易先生走進王佳芝房間，坐在空蕩蕩的床上，撫物思人，聽到十點鐘聲響時，正是行刑時間，他一震（觀眾幾乎同時感受到一痛），他起身離開，這個矮小的男人巨大的黑影壓覆在她白色的床單上。

李安真是夠溫厚的。

李安把王佳芝塑造成一個在戰亂失去父愛的孤女，她跟自己所愛的男人鄺裕民唯一的連結叫作「愛國」；易先生在張愛玲小說裡則根本是「鼠相」，李安找帥氣、憂鬱的梁朝偉演這個漢奸，大大減低了這齣戲「女大學生色誘大漢奸」不堪的悲劇性，但，卻增加了王佳芝愛上易先生的合理性，當然也大大增加了票房。

「色，戒」裡充滿辯證，王佳芝憑藉的是「色」，而易先生憑藉的是「戒」（鑽戒和戒心），但是，鑽戒本來也是閃閃發光的「色」，而王佳芝以「色」事人或迷人時，自身面對情欲裡的「色」，又要用多大的「戒」來自持、自制。易先生不喜歡鑽戒，他認為那不過就是個石頭，但，他卻拿這樣一個石頭敲碎女人如石的心防，最後他否認那是他的鑽戒。

在這齣充滿辯證的戲裡，李安為了行銷為了得到理解，在兩岸政治之間、在東西文化之間，在委屈和求全之間，看似優遊，其實難為。

「愛就是不問值不值得」，李安，莫哭罷。

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 21:09:44 GMT

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 16:23:45 GMT

the biggest news in philly!!!

Phillies Aim To Prove They're 'Team To Beat'

It's been 14 years, even though i support Wang from NY Yakees, but.. still want Phillies to win!!!

大聯盟本季賽事告一段落，只剩今天洛磯、教士隊加賽，目前確定打進季後賽的7隊中，除了連續13年晉級的洋基隊，其餘都是前1年看不見的新面孔，「翻新程度」已是近12年來最多。

新的季後賽實施13年來，費城人是今年首次晉級，目前美聯、國聯各有3隊還未「開胡」，分別是藍鳥、皇家、魔鬼魚、釀酒人、海盜、國民。值得一提的是，費城人上次打進季後賽，就是1993年奪下國聯冠軍，最後在世界大賽2勝4敗不敵藍鳥，費城人直到今年才甩掉魔咒。

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 14:19:24 GMT

昨天(15日)民進黨的入聯大遊行，陳水扁總統一家四代同時亮相，翊安、翊廷可愛的模樣也成為媒體焦點；不過有毒舌網友立刻把「一碗麵」的故事拿來和總統的金孫相比，創作了極其諷刺的短片，放在I'm Vlog。

一場大遊行，讓好久不見的翊安、翊廷露面了，但也讓他們成了網友毒舌的題材，有網友把同樣是9月15日當天的兩則新聞整併，配上歌曲「金包銀」，結果成了這樣的短片：(歌詞)「別人的性命，是框金又包銀，阮的性命不值錢……」

悲情歌詞當襯底音樂，加上放大的圖文字體，諷刺意味十足：「別人呀若開口，是金言玉語，(翊安會不會累？)，啊～！好玩，阮若是多講話，馬上就出代誌，去資源回收！賺多少錢？賺235。」

毒舌派的網友問，一樣都是台灣孩子，怎麼差這麼多？同樣的畫面，配上不同音樂，諷刺的主角也跟著轉向：「當我們同在一起，在一起、在一起……。」

只能說，新聞畫面已經成了網友另類創作的題材之一，網友批論時事，手腳之快、熱門話題搶時效、諷刺影片24小時內就能熱騰騰出爐，唯一不變的是，嗆辣口味依舊，讓人看了不印象深刻也難。

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Tue, 11 Sep 2007 19:39:45 GMT

TODAY IS SEPT. 11...... STILL REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED 6 YEARS AGO....

Peace in the world...and God Bless everyone in each part of the world

AND

God bless all those who lost their lives during the attacks. Heroes, every one....

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 19:14:27 GMT

有人看 8/20 康熙來了嗎?
高山峰VS.小甜甜
我覺得他們兩個在一起的感覺很不錯ㄟ~
真心祝福他們喔!! How about me??? >_<"

主持人問高山峰以後會不會跟小甜甜發展出戀情
高山峰想都沒想說有可能

我記得後來蔡康永在余祥銓旁邊時
還TAKE到高山峰轉頭小小聲問小甜甜：
你真的有那麼差嗎??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGYq9WlvhpE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRMro-80MY0&mode=related&search=

看起來真的不像做假
但~~演藝圈真真假假虛虛實實...

jealous, jealou, jealous, jealous, jualous......

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 15:11:40 GMT

Today, i saw this news article at yahoo taiwan.. just want to share this to everyone... i feel i am so lucky, coz i have friends who always supports me... also, i feel sorry for those people in taiwan...

"胖子的原罪？台灣社會請廢除胖子不平等條約!"

記者:張百惠

29歲體重超過80公斤的女子因為肥胖找不到工作在家，被親人念了幾句之後居然選擇以自殺方式結束生命。看到這樣消息，不禁讓我感到遺憾，我今年30歲，七年前的我，身高153公分，體重高達94公斤，那時因為大學音樂系沒考上，在重考時想打工貼補學費，因此四處面試找工作，一直都擔任音樂老師的我，找的打工工作是百貨公司地下美食街的洗碗工，帶著履歷向店家詢問，店員當場告訴我，我們廚房太小了，很抱歉－－言下之意，就是我太大太胖傳房都進不了！接著，我看到婚紗公司徵求門市人員，我依舊帶著履歷前往，店長聽完我的詢問之後馬上說，很抱歉，我們已經找到人了！就這樣，接案連三的被拒絕跟碰壁，直到我考上大學為止，除了當音樂老師兼差，我沒有應徵上任何工作。

胖，難道就該注定被拒絕被排擠嗎？當我成功減掉43公斤的現在，我在網路上「胖子的天空」blog中跟網友分享當胖子的心情，不只我，好多網友都因為肥胖在求職過程遭受歧視與污辱，甚至因為肥胖被男友家人排斥而走上分手之路的更大有人在，我想問，在台灣的社會裡，胖就犯了滔天大罪嗎？找不到工作就算了，有工作的胖子在職場上也得忍受同事無情的譏笑跟諷刺，東一句死胖子，西一句肥婆，就算不說話坐在旁邊，都會被說體積大站空間，不然就說空氣都被我們吸光，而爲了符合傳統「心寬體胖」形容的胖子們，在面對無情的打擊時，只能假裝不在意的陪著笑臉，甚至跟著別人一起開自己玩笑，但，當胖子轉過身去時，只能在沒有人的角落心痛流淚，暗自療傷…胖子，就這麼罪該萬死嗎？

當我肥胖時，連停個紅綠都被呼嘯而過的機車大罵「死大枯仔」，帶著錢去買牛肉捲餅當晚餐，也被做餅的師父當場說：你這麼胖了，不要再吃了！胖，就不該出門不該吃飯嗎？追求美麗是天性，有誰會願意作踐自己甘願肥胖呢？這個社會就不能給胖子有點尊嚴的空間嗎？

一個胖子死了，還有多少胖子在角落流淚？各位，當你恥笑胖子的身體時，是否意識到你正傷害的跟你一樣也是個人，沒有作姦犯科，只是，體重比你重，身材比你差，這樣，就該扁為二等國民嗎？只因為肥胖，胖子所有的努力跟內涵就該全被抹殺掉？這個社會張的就這麼的不問能力只論美貌？走過二十多年的肥胖歲月，被拒絕、被排擠、被譏笑、被取所有跟豬有關的綽號，至今心中的痛並沒有因為變瘦而瘉合，看著網友一篇篇令人心痛的分享，我想問，在台灣，胖子何時才能擁有尊嚴跟平等？胖子在職場及社會上的不平等條約，何時才能被去除？

親愛的胖子們，自殺絕對不是最好的選擇，在社會無法善待我們之前，請先善待自己，至少給自己一個變美麗的機會跟未來，在聽到無數譏笑後，我也曾想過結束生命，但，我堅持下來也順利減掉43公斤了，如果，那時的我真的走了，那麼這一生，我就真的到死都是個胖子了，不是嗎？社會不愛我們沒關係，至少，我們可以先愛自己！

●作者張百惠，世新大學公廣所研究生。簡介表示，2000年95公斤，2007年52公斤，只用熱量控制跟一台刷卡送的踏步機，在一年完成減重26公斤的任務，在網路上創立胖子的天空blog探討當胖子的甘苦及減肥心得

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 15:14:29 GMT

i haven't have this kind of feeling for long long time... i almost forget what does it feels like... finally, last friday i met him. he makes me start to believe in "FATE". it's so weird, never thought i will see he again... but it happened!!! anyway, couple weeks later, i will find out the FATE is real or not....

ps: goal to reach ~ 10 by Independence Day!!

20 by 14th

Fri, 04 May 2007 15:43:45 GMT

I MISS THE OLD ME... I USED TO HAVE SO MUCH CONFIDENTS, BUT... WHERE IS IT NOW? I DON'T KNOW...

I STARTED TO WONDER, IS MY LIFE JUST BE LIKE THAT? HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN LIVE IN THIS NOT PERFECT WORLD? I GUESS, Mm...MAYBE 30/40 YEARS... DON'T KNOW.. MAYBE I WILL BE DIED TOMORROW, EVEN NEXT MINUT.. WHO KNOWS... BUT I WANT TO BE CONFIDENTS AND PROUD OF MYSELF..I DO MISS THE OLD ME.....

Fri, 04 May 2007 15:40:04 GMT

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Thu, 03 May 2007 14:25:43 GMT

Today will be my 3rd day of running!! Actually, i can't called it running, coz i didn't really "run", most of time i do is 'Fast Walking'. So i made myself a plan, 1st week, Fast Waling. 2nd and 3rd week , start to run 3 times a week. after a month, i will start to run longer miles. Right now, i can do the fast walking from Wallingford to Smarthmore college in 15 mins. so happy~~ Plus, i am thinking after a month of exercise then start to control my eating. Hopely i can make it!!!!

So if you have any tips or information that can help me to lose weight, pleas let me know!!! \^Q^/

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 18:28:08 GMT

FXCK, since i work in the office... i gain weight!!!! 18 pounds, 18 pounds!!!! i can't believe that!!!!

shit, i am fat, i am fat, i am toooooo fat!!!!!!!!!! even though, i am already fat when i were kid, but... i don't want to be tooooo fat!!! it's time for me to lose some weight... i don't want to see the mirror which i have to see all the time >_< i swear i will lost at least 20 pounds by end of year!!!!!!! wish me luck guys~~

Sat, 17 May 2008 04:22:42 GMT

reception 3/30

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Thu, 17 Apr 2008 05:11:59 GMT

My Lovely Family

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Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:44:08 GMT

3/30 Welcome to my lovely sister's wedding

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Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:31:35 GMT

Kailin & Ray's Wedding

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Sat, 10 Nov 2007 07:41:33 GMT

Bella B-day @ Ice

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Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:51:42 GMT

~**We are Family**~

Such a beautiful Family!!

CHeesssss!!

Peking Duck

food art

Hungry already

WHAT THE BIG SUSHI BOAT

what a lovely family!!!

who is sleeping out there

Lori & Alex

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Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:47:35 GMT

Lori's baby~ A.J.

i want to eatttt

i am drinking beer

Ugh...

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:44:59 GMT

Gay St Fair 2007

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:42:43 GMT

2006Christmas

Elsie & Kailin

Huh?~

Chole & Kai

Wei & Chole

lovely family

Simmon

Chole

joan & Kailin

Jammie

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:39:07 GMT

Thanksgiving at Sammie's 2006

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Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:36:32 GMT

10days in philly @pure 022006

Shiiii..don't tell anyone we are at PURE again!

Friends Forever

come on, not again!!

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what the lovely bit-a-chi

horneyyyyyyyy and drunk crazy bitch

wow~ hottie

what the F....?!@$#$